My new job is going well, I'm learning new skills, everyone's nice and I don't really feel the long commute until the end of the week. Also it keeps me nice and busy, not a lot of downtime since I'm balancing reference desk and ILL. The ILL is something I'm going to keep getting faster at but for now, it takes time ( Read more... )

The Democratic debate is on and I'm watching and they started right in the heart of it with healthcare which hurt more that I'd expected. Tuesday would have been my sister's 54th birthday and missing her has been threading through my life so much this year. Its made for a rough summer with a mix of good and bad. I've also been getting over a cold ( Read more... )

For the past couple of weeks other than a few notable exceptions like the day of my sister's memorial, the weather has been rainy or cloudy. That plus all the driving and traveling I've been doing has left me feeling not completely tethered to one place and that my apartment and my job and my family all strings anchoring me. Some are good anchors ( Read more... )

Last night I dreamed that the floor in my apartment was falling and then somehow flooding, it began in a corner of the bathroom and then spread. Most of the dream was spent moving various things back and forth as a handyman was there, my parents helped and somehow new architectural details of my apartment were found but it was a truly anxious dream ( Read more... )

This has been a week that feels like a month. I spent the weekend with family saying goodbye to my sister at a wonderful hospice that gave us space and quiet. On Monday I took the train back to Boston and on Tuesday was at work, which was a strange day. I had a meeting with my boss and co-worker and then later with student managers as well as ( Read more... )

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My sister died tonight and this album and this song among others have been my soundtrack since she started to get a lot sicker during the holidays. I miss her already.

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I just booked train tickets to go down this weekend to say goodbye to my sister who tomorrow is hopefully being moved to a hospice place. Fuck cancer, we knew she was failing after the holidays and probably wouldn’t get better in the rehab place but she’s just gotten a lot worse. Now she’s in the hospital and ugh. I’m glad that I can be there to ( Read more... )

There was a post going around Tumblr at one point about how if someone's being bothered by something that seems small, its probably because there's more going on. Today I had one of those days when the fact that I had to dig my car out since the plow that does the parking lot completely hemmed it in and I couldn't get it out, that was my point of ( Read more... )

Today is my day for catching up since my drive ended up one day as I spent the 2nd with my parents visiting my sister, and I said I wouldn’t be back at work until tomorrow. I’m so glad that I did that because this entire break has been long and not that much of an actual break ( Read more... )

I'm only now sitting at my laptop for the first time since I was driving down to Delaware. I didn't really have time from Sunday until Boxing Day and then I was feeling too tired to really pull my thoughts together to attempt writing or putting into words all that happened ( Read more... )